Heart Tears

While I was yet . . . kicking and screaming,

You cared for me.

While I was yet . . . hurt and hurting,

You held me.

While I was yet . . . unforgiving,

You forgave me.

While I was yet . . . running away,

You sought me.

While I was yet . . . unlovable and unloving,

You loved me.

While I was yet . . . in the depths of darkness,

You died for me.

Can I love the one . . .

kicking and screaming, hurt and hurting, unforgiving, unloving, and wanting to run?

Did you cry tears of sorrow for me . . . like this mother cries for her wounded one?

Give me Your heart, Lord, your strength.

“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8 NIV

February 14, 2012 Delana H. Stewart


See also: My Hosea Story (raising wounded children)

Of Sheep and Shepherds (of letting go and trusting God)

Into the Mind of a Child with RAD

Tummy Mommy

Do you need endurance or encouragement for enduring? Click here.

Need to journal your story? Look no more! My Paper Pregnancy Journal is now available for you to tell your story!

Read more about Nine Year Pregnancy: Waiting on God–Our Journey of Adoption

Order now an autographed copy from the author — or from your favorite online bookstore.


Click here to read a post by Shaun Groves called: Gotcha Day–A Cautionary Tale

And these posts, too:

Jamie Ivey on the LifeWay website about adoption healing.

Hugging Our Porcupine by the Wrights.


Meet Carly–a girl with severe autism who learned to communicate via typing at the age of 11– http://carlysvoice.com/home/carly-in-the-media/


***If your child has behavior that is different from his/her peers, it is a good idea to talk with a pediatric neurologist, a pediatrician, and perhaps an occupational therapist. Though some adopted children have reactive attachment disorder (RAD), there are some neurological, medical, and psychological conditions that have some overlapping characteristics. Things like ADHD, ASD, ODD, PTSD, FAS, SPD, Tourette’s, and others should be carefully considered by medical professionals evaluating your child.  See this article on Sensory Processing Disorder and the Adopted Child. Don’t rely on books, checklists, and blog posts alone, have your child evaluated. There may even be some medical concerns such as vitamin deficiencies or food allergies/intolerances that have an adverse affect.


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Adoption Videos on YouTube

Click here to view Delana’s YouTube Channel–http://www.youtube.com/user/9yrpregnancy Or, click the following for individual videos: Perseverance, Patience, Waiting, and Adoption http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wtCRjxjocpI Reading the Preface to Nine Year Pregnancy http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8MBjWC8Z_8 Singing “God Will make this trial a blessing” …

10 Questions Adoptive Parents Ask Short video clips by Dr. Karyn Purvis, author of The Connected Child: Bring hope and healing to your adoptive family.


Need Encouragement for the difficult days:

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Three Days at Sea: Soul flotation when the waves are pulling you under




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